Friday, January 28, 2005

I Drifted Away

Umm... Hi. I am in the Virgin Islands right now... so I can't really talk. Oh you didn't know I was going... yeah I didn't either. I'll tell you all about it when I get home, but for now I have to go sit on the beach and sip something tasty and catch some rays. I love you all, but I would not trade places for the world right now.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

wisdom from 10-12am

From 10-12AM on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I sit in my Women Studies/ Creative Writing class. In this class we do a great deal of reading and then discussing what we read.

Don't you get that message in the Bible that Listening more and speaking less produces wisdom? I mean I know you do, I just don't have a Bible to quote right now.

So my arrogance unveiled is that I think this little expression over and over again in that very 10-12 class.

You see, there are these people (or maybe just one girl), who make it easier on the professor, by saying every little thing that comes to their mind. While this does give real relief in silences, it makes me think things like:
"Why are you saying that."
"That is very clear from what the professor JUST said about the piece."
"I don't understand why you have to talk all the time."

Now the light inside of me would say, "Shut up you ignorant fool! At least this woman has the guts to speak up and not feel afraid of being stupid!"

Do I even have a place to talk about this girl? I mean all of the things I have said are true. She is more bold than me, but she may lack tact.

I just feel like if what you are saying is not valuable, why even say it.

No offense girl in my gender writing class, I still think you are much more bold that I could be, but maybe a little less chatter would be more productive.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Stop. No please just stop.

All of you who think it is
1. ok to call people fat/ugly
2. it is funny to call people fat/ugly
3. think people are unfortunate or could never get anywhere because they are fat/ugly
4. think of yourself as fat or ugly

JUST STOP

Ok. Maybe you think you are stating the truth, but really you are just vomiting all of your shallowness and judgmental crap into the open air, that maybe you should only whisper to yourself because of how ashamed you should feel for even thinking these "truths."

Or maybe you are just creating conversation, gossip, entertainment, or a joke, but really you are the opposite of hilarious, you are hurtful.

While maybe you just pity people because their appearances are going to hinder them for the rest of their lives... well maybe there you are right because there are too many people like you.

And maybe you think you are fat or ugly, and maybe you are right, and maybe you have the wrong definition of beautiful and healthy, and maybe you have the wrong friends or role models, and maybe you just aren't looking through the eyes of your creator.

A little reminder to those of you who are able to lose weight by eating healty and exercising. Not everyone's body works the same as yours. Not everyone's metabolism works correctly.

Does anyone even remember all of the cliche things people have told you when you have had self-esteem issues. Beauty is only skin deep. What matters is the inside. These aren't just cushy little expressions for naive people, they are truths and pieces of wisdom. Learn them.

Now I hardly think this applies to many of you, but if you are worried about someones healthy because of how overweight they are, why in the heck would it help to call them fat. Why would it even help to talk about them when they weren't there. Go ahead and worry. Go ahead and encourage healthy behavior, but please stop with the negativity.

If you still think it's ok to call people fat and ugly, please challenge me. I promise to be correct. This is not an issue where I will accept that everyone has a different opinion.

Monday, January 10, 2005

When Class Doesn't Happen

I am officially on a 4 day weekend right now! I don't have class on fridays this quater and the one class that I have on Mondays got canceled today! Yay! We just had another meeting for the book club last night. We have officially done two books now (The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time and Middlesex), and we are now reading A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genious.
My class load this quater is shaping up to be a little overwhelming. I am starting my mini-thesis so as to hopefully graduate, I am taking a creative writing class that has like a 3-4 pager every other day and then two 20 pagers during the quarter, then I have two linguistic courses. One of the linguistics classes is a typical busy work kind of class and the other one is mostly as well except that we have to read a book and write a book reportish kind of thing which I don't want to do.
So 20 Monty girls... do you want to hang out all together some planned weekend? Emily is here, she's either going to be co-leading my new bible study or just be a member... I am not sure. Oh yeah, Mae, January 21st is Leah's birthday and I would like to give her a dinner party, wanna come? I don't know when it will be yet, but some time around that date.
New Bible study! yeah i know i just mentioned it but I feel like it deserves a little paragraph. Keeping with the tradition of never being in a bible study longer than a quarter (except maybe Mae's for two quarters), I am yet again switching to a smaller study, with a more logical mix of people and what I think a more competent leader (that may be wrong to say). Yay!

That is the abrupt end... (kind of like Middlesex)

Saturday, January 08, 2005

REAL QUICK

Ok so my five minute ago update was about sweatshops, fairtrade, all that stuff... so as i research SB i find some fishy things. I have always been a little reluctant to believe that SB could be all fair trade, but the outcome is much worse that I would have ventured to guess. Check this out guys... they are lying to you about who they are and what they do! Go to responsibleshopper.org and under companies go to Starbucks... please look at it!

it's been a long time, i shouldn't have left you, without a dope beat to step to.

My Brand Spanking New Idea
Step by Step

-> So... For a while now I have been harshly judging every move of the campus crusaders... i must say a little unGodly like. Despite my knowing of this sin, I couldn't help but be really mad every time I saw them in their Abercrombie, Old Navy, AE clothes walking out of Wal-Mart or McDonalds. I mean, how as a Christian could you so completely fuel the machines that are mistreating children, men, and women? Well I guess it would be time to ask myself this as well. After ranting and raving every time in my head about these very uncool christians, God would turn my face to the mirror and say "plank much?" So what do you do after you realize how horribly you are hurting others? You do something right? So my gut reaction was this... Learn a lot and then ask for the crusaders to invite me to give them a presentation. Well after talking to some weathered crusaders they told me that this idea might be rejected but that I might have a chance at getting some invites to the bible studies. Ok... I can do that, but I just didn't really feel it for the boys bible studies. one, would they even listen to me a girl? two, would i be so uncomfortable to the point of stumbling all over my words? I decided that I would need a boy in this with me. I searched my bank of boys in my head that would feel the same way I do about this and would have the time to get on board. Of course I thought of Chris, mainly because it was him who opened my eyes to the whole social justice idea, but he is far away. So today while i was still trying to figure out how to find a boy, I talked with Chris about it all, and he said "what about me." Yay! So as of now Christopher and I are yet again working together toward a common goal. So guys help me out! Tell me what you know, tell me how you feel, tell me what you think needs addressed.
Lyndsey-> tell me about how you felt weighed down.
Mae-> Do you know of just products?
Colleen-> Do you know the history of sweat shops or organic farmers or anything?
I really want to do this guys, and I would love for you all to hold me accountable to it!


Tuesday, January 04, 2005

it has been a long time thus the long rant

Topic of Discussion today: Sexual Assault

Its been a long time since I have been naive about sexual assault, therefore I forget that others can be. With that said, I want to tell you a story. Ok I was with a group of people. A couple of these people were friends with this person who was not only previously convicted of a sexual assault but is in the process of pleading innocent to another at the ripe age of 17. So from the 17 year olds point of view, this is what happened. He went to homecoming with this big slut. After the dance they were making out. He went to finger her when she said no. So like a gentleman he did not touch her there and they preceeded in making out. After a while he tried to go there again, and amazingly enough she said no again. So back to the making out without fingering. This boy apparently thinks that the third time would be a charm so as he meandered back down... she stopped saying no.

Ok. First, Let's remember that there are two sides to every story. Second, why is he making out with a "slut" if he is not one himself? Third, why does her sexual history have to do with this story? Fourth, why is he only 17 fighting another legal battle?

This is how the rest of the discussion went...
girl: poor Matt
boy: he's such a good guy he just has such bad luck.
other: what was the previous charge for?
boy: he was babysitting an 8 year old girl, they were wrestling and his hand ended up somewhere is shouldn't have been on accident. The parents freaked out.
girl: the little girl didn't even care she didn't try to get him in trouble.
boy: plus this girl's (homecoming "slut") story keeps changing.
girl: yeah and they uped the charge to rape.
boy: she claims she had never had sex before that.
girl: and she has herpes
boy: he didn't have sex with her.

ok... what if he did rape her? have you ever been the victim of a sexual assault? would you know how uncomfortable and embarrassing it is to unmask the truth? You know how they say the victim often feels fault for their assault? That's not bull shit. Can you imagine if when this boy did rape her she didn't say no... she would feel so insecure, but try to confess to him doing at least one thing she hadn't wanted.

Lets put a stop to assuming that women cry rape. Maybe it happened in this case, but lets leave the horrible assumptions aside that make us look like compassionless animals.

Issue #2
Working at the Front Room is not really work. It's more like socializing. So any pay is good pay right? Apparently not. The majority of the workers in the front room work a total of 5 hours a week. They are dumb. And they think that for 5.30 they shouldn't have to work. Hi, remember that you have the best job on campus... that is so dumb.

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I got my period on the first rainy day of winter quarter in my favorite new underwear.


How the rain is so appropriate right now.