Monday, April 30, 2007

A three hour nap solves everything.

It felt so nice to be able to sleep like that again!

Does anyone have any good vegan recipes?

I am watching the OC, do you think less of me?

Friday, April 27, 2007

Hittin' It...

Not like hitiin' it with somone or tapping some ass or anything like that, but the road rather, hittin' the road. Wow I can't wait until I get to sit in the car for 6 hours and then 4 and then 4 and then 6. Sounds a lot like what I just did this week at work.

Monday- 6-12
Tuesday- 6:30-9:00 and 10-6:00
Wednesday- 6:30-9:30 and 3-CL
Thursday- 6-11 and 5-CL
Today- OP-1

I am digging for sympathy and recognition... if you didn't notice.

It will all have been worth it when I get to see you!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Untitled.

Is it ok to ignore the issues that I am really passionate about because I am busy? Is that a lame excuse that turns into eternal complacentcy? One might ask why I have the time to blog and not send a senator a letter... I can't answer that.

Am I excused from advocating for the international community since I am working at Inspiration? And if not, can you find any worthy excuses for me?

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

He was kind.

Monday, April 23, 2007

yikes...

is it bad to say damn before baby?

There is this damn baby that cries all of the time in our apartment building...

and it's almost as annoying as the dancer that lives above us.

I am not going to apply or interview for the Cafe Manager position at Inspiration.

I am making friends, which seems like the only thing I ever talk about on this blog. The thing is, that even though some of the work I do is somewhat important, my real main goal right now is to create some kind of community to lean on. I need friends in a way that most people don't experience. Did you know that? Even if I don't have real life changing issues going on and even if we don't talk about me... I really depend on socializing and gathering energy from others in a big way. It kind of ranks like this:
1.) I need God (which is never recognized as much as it should be).
2.) I need a job (to make me feel like I have some worth).
3.) I need friends (so that I know that I am alive).
4.) Then comes food, water, sleep, entertainment.
5.) Crosswords probably fall in line here and maybe beer/coffee.
music probably doesn't even come in until like #11.

I might be traveling this weekend... stay tuned to find out where.

Friday, April 20, 2007

It was Him.

I saw the Decemberists last night and when I found the opportunity to speak with Colin Meloy, he confirmed that I had indeed served him the other day... cool.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

How do you act in front of a celebrity?

Maybe something I questioned way too late.

Ok. So, in considering my beliefs, maybe I have taken the whole idolatry thing too seriously. That aside, I feel like holding up celebrities above people status is a little ridiculous. I have to say that there are a couple of famous people that could make my heart flutter... I don't like mentioning who. Anyway.... it's possible that I served Colin Meloy yesterday... and after I took the money and someone else said "hey I think the lead singer of The Decemberists is in the bathroom," I blushed and got really excited. After staring at him, I decided that there was no way that this was Colin. On my break I looked at some pictures and now I just don't know. Wouldn't I have recognized his voice? They are in town, that's for sure. They have a concert tonight and tomorrow... should I go?

In the end, Colin (the Intelligentsia one) maybe me feel ridiculous for not being able to keep my cool. What can I say, I am a fan of the Decemberists.

So... what if I was the Cafe Manager at Inspiration? Do you think I could or should do that? I would have to drop down to part time at Intelligentsia... but the coffee is what I really want to pursue... I think.

Advice... please.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

You know who I am, right?

So, after leaving the blog world for a while, I understand that people stopped coming here, but I expected that after I came back y'all would spread the news. There can't be that many people interested in reading about my life, but I guess I expected a couple more. I assumed that since I click on the links on your sites, curious people would do the same and find me here. Soo.... why is it that when I respond to some of your friend's posts... they ignore my comments? They do know who I am, right? Is SweetT not a recognizable alias? Should I change it? Am I being to needy for attention?

My feet hurt. Today was very berry busy at Intelligentsia.

Have I told you about the cockroach in the bathroom? Gross! They also call them water bugs... that's much friendlier.

See you tomorrow.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Taxes, Taxes, Taxes...

My dad and I have had this deal since my becoming an adult, If he can claim me, than he will take care of filling out my taxes and since I am forever in debted to him, he gets my return. Well even though he was able to claim me this year, my many W2s have not all come in... meaning that I have to file for an extension. This also means that I cannot expect him to fill out all of the paper work... I get the money. Today was the day that I was going to sit down and take care all of this crap, and of course because I am not really an adult yet, I cannot find any of my W2s. I feel pretty defeated right now. At least I have a thermos full of Intelligentsia coffee to keep me going. Maybe to make it a completely productive day off, I will watch "The Lord of the Rings."

Teeter, do you remember when I tried to do that before? I am not sure it will take this time either.

Hey Starbucks ladies... or shall I say Monty ladies...
Might I urge you to try Intelligentsia coffee? I think you will be really impressed, at least Colleen was/is. If it is not found in any of your local groceries or coffee shops, you can find it online. If this is too much for you, than maybe I should just send some to you. Would that interest you? Tell me what you like in your coffee and I can pick out some that will fit your buds. (I am taking my "Bean Certification" test this week.)

I would like to invite all of you to visit Chicago. I feel like I have a pretty good grasp on the city and would be able to show you a good time. Also, If you would like, you could volunteer at Inspiration... it really is quite an experience.

Beer: I tasted a good beer last night.... darn what was it called? It was an IPA that was 7% and really hoppy (sp). I think it was a 3 digit number that started with 4... I will find it.

I almost forgot! Have you heard of missed connections on CraigsList? Someone posted about me! They said that my smile made their day... aww that's nice.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

After Reading about You...

I was thinking, because I am naturally jealous, after the teet's bad week everyone came to sympathize, why in the hell did you drop the ball with me? Where is my f'in sympathy? Except for the teet... she did give a quick encouragement. Obviously you shouldn't be mad at me here... because this is just my jealousy and my being prone to hosting my own pity party... plus she is cuter than me, so I shouldn't blame you.

Also. Chris is much funnier than me... or so it seems. If you read his blog, he is really hilarious even when he is completely depressing. I swear, if you heard the jokes that bomb in our cute little apartment, you would be seriously impressed when reading monsterbeard.
Oh yeah, and that comment about his links not being in any particular order, he means except for mine... he knows how sensitive I am about ranking... ehem LT.

Teeterness, Shit your life is sucking this year. That is not meant to be discouragement, but rather recognition. I am admiring your strength right now. Let's just take a moment and recognize that, at least you are not running into the brush trying to hide from your f'ed up attackers. This doesn't make your life better, obviously, it just helps put into perspective that your life ranks a little more comfortable than other's. You can win over me right now though.

One of my supervisors (Inspiration), yesterday, mentioned the possibility of me being offered a new position. Seriously? After, what, two months of service? okey dokey. Honestly, I would rather "grow with the company" at Intelligentsia... but I haven't been offered anything yet anyway.

Today is my day off! It's been really nice so far. Chris and I are celebrating Easter tonight with a very nice dinner. I don't know how Jesus and dinner relate...

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Another Awful Day...

I want another rest. God knew that I was in for some real suckiness and that's why he gave me all of that rest when I first got to Chicago. In reality perspective my life is vibrant and great... but right now I feel really low. I am sure that a time without a job and no motivation is really a lot worse for my sense of self worth and overall well being.

A guest at the Cafe (Inspiration) told me that I am mean, today. I tried to be honest and vulnerable with him and he took that chance to sink his teeth in. Eventually I asked that he and I just come to a place of respect... and he sort of agreed. The whole situation just knocked me down.

It was really hard to go to work (Intelligentsia) after that.

This is just a pity party.

My life doesn't suck.

Hooray for the resurection of Jesus! Seriously rising from the dead has to be much rougher than a couple of shit days.

Happy Easter Y'all!!!

Friday, April 06, 2007

I want a do-over.

Waking up this morning was fine, but everything after has been a big disappointment. Working at Inspiration has been great, but I am sick of the attitudes that fly around that place. Because we are trying to achieve a restaurant style setting so that we can really reintroduce these folks back into society, they expect EVERYTHING that you would find at a restaurant. They want food that is not on the menu, quick service, perfect food, and the worst thing is that they think they can treat the servers any way the want. The complaints are constant. I am expected to address the issues and squash any problematic situations. There was so much more than attitude today... miscommunication and misunderstanding were rampant. Workers were late... everything that you can think. All that I wanted to do was leave. When I got out of there I waited for 30 minutes for the bus, which was fine because I didn't have anywhere to be. Once I was on the bus... it was really really cramped, which was still fine. Then, toward the end of the ride, a person that clearly had some physical handicap got on the bus and said to a young woman,
"Excuse me, I have a hard time standing up on the bus."
translation- may I have your seat?
The girl just looked at the person annoyed...
WTF- dumb girl just get up!
What is wrong with people?

It's 10:38- I am sure my whole day is not ruined. Anyone have some nice kind stories for today? I want my hope restored.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Untitled.

I don't have anything to say, but I wanted to come here anyway. I get a little nervous when nobody comments on a blog, so I want to cover it up as fast as possible. I should have titled this post "the cover-up."

Remember when Country Crock commercials were great?

Do you remember dancing to the intro music to "Full House?" I loved that show!

I want icecream... see you later.

We all want to inspire someone to write a blog!

Mae, you win.

After thinking about my friends as children, I wanted to talk to you about it.

Here is what I know:

Colleen is surprisingly cute as a child and an adult. Have you experienced cute Colleen? How can a woman that tall be cute? She pulls it off. When she was a wee one she was absolutely adorable, just ask her mom.

Chris... was in his own world. It's not so different from now, but at least now he obeys the legal drinking age.

What I don't know:

Who else was completely floored when they saw Lyndsey Johnson's (yes it was Johnson then) senior pics? If she could go from cheerleader to what she was in college... I can only imagine what she was like as a little girl. I imagine she spent a lot of time with her father.

Mae. Do you think she had as much spunk then too? I bet she didn't question herself as much. I bet she knew then that she could accomplish anything.

Fast forward to now:

Chris is back... check it out.

Do you think the full moon thing is real? It's hard to doubt.

I have this friend that asked to have us (her friends) write a letter to her reminding her who she is and why we love her, wouldn't you love to have a letter like that? I am feeling inspired. Let's start doing this for each other!? Could we write to each other and talk about these things?

Hi mom.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Making Friends and Falling in Love.

Chicago, in comparison with the other cities I have moved to in the past, has quickly grown on me. For instance, when I moved to Athens I hated the place for about a year. I surely liked my new friends there and maybe what I was doing with my life, but it took a year for me to grow to adore that place where I would (or so I thought) forever call my true home. Akron was hard too. Making real genuine friends and being comfortable took almost the whole time that I was there. It was only after I left when I realized that I had truly established a life there. Now, in Chicago, my first couple of months were really rocky, but it is suddenly all leveling out. Working in two places where I feel i am really using my true skills is a definite plus. It is also nice to be working with people of the same age with similar values and goals.

I was walking down the street the other day when I realized how comfortable I was. I walked into a consignment shop and bough a pair of jeans for $13 and a pair of shoes for $3.75! I can have a soy latte any day for free. I eat breakfast at least 3 days out of the week for free too! Not that thriftiness has driven me to happiness... but it has sure helped. I know where to get groceries, go to the movies, go for a run, how to use public transportation, where to eat when I want to eat out, and I am learning so much about coffee and social work.

Eventually I will be financially stable and summer will be here... things are really looking up!