Honestly People
I am sorry to say that my character is failing. I want so badly for you to feel horrible for not showing up... not because it hurts my feelings but because it is a real lack of action.
Chris and Katie, through their encouragement, made me feel like the letter writing party was a success. Chris was really good at telling me before hand that I was just setting myself up for failure... but I really expected much more. I didn't really think that after so many people "gave their word" that they would be there... that nobody (other than Jess and Chris who really had to be there... but I do appreciate their company no matter what) showed.
My goal was twenty letters, and I do believe we got there. I have yet to really send them all out because in preparing all of the letter writing party information, I neglected school work. So right now I am neglecting letter sending so that I can pass my classes.
Leah friend, hang in there. I can't wait to see you again. The wedding is this next weekend... it should prove to be a fun weekend away.
Jessica Meyer- you are a good person, I like you.
Sorry if y'all think I am being a jerk... it's the emotions talking.
Confession
I am really afraid.
Really afraid that nobody will show up.
Will anything be accomplished if nobody does show up?
Remember when I read "Fast Food Nation" and you told me that I shouldn't go around telling people what they are doing wrong. I think that's true. I do believe that God has his own timing. Are you willing to believe that he is using me to encourage, motivate you and in result you feel conviction?
That's what I am expecting that God is doing here, honestly who knows if that is true, but even if you are not coming, I want you, as a friend, to promise me, that you will not forget about the issues at hand, and do something about them.
do you remember this song...?
That was her- this is me. We are different as can be. She and I are nothing alike. You are confusing day with night. That was then - this is now. You want to trust but you don't know how. I'm never going to mess around, let you down.
I am sitting in the FR office. This is where I do all of my business (homework, work). There is a radio in the corner room that is on. I heard that song and I got excited. It is early in the morning though and you would be mad if I called you now to be nostalgic about a song... so to everyone who had or has bad music taste... that's one for us.
did you know... why didn't you tell me
I was informed last night by one Emily Blair that the wedding I will be attending the weekend after next will be quite a formal one. Heck I have a hard time dressing appropriate for the non-formal ones...how shall I be ready for this one. Anyway... here are the solutions, you can lend me a dress... which I don't think that any of you that read this would be anywhere close to the same size as me... I could find one in the thrift store... which doesn't seem possible... or on our way out of town Chris and I can stop at 10,000 villages (do they have the dress that I need). No matter what I will need to save all of the tips I can this week... and I should just not eat (not a funny joke because for some that's a serious problem).
Also, I got a job. I will be leaving the Front Room soon, which is sad and happy all at the same time. I have officially ended my duties as student manager and as of now I am just supervising Crystal until she grows into the good manager that I know she will be. Back to the point, I will be moving to the Coffee Cup. Yeah, that greasy spoon in Nelsonville that my other house-mate works at. She is kind of the bosses favorite, so she mentioned me, and she mentioned me not having a car and he said "sure we can work something out." Nice. So not only will I get to work as a server (which sorry to say is a dream of mine) but I will get to work every freaking shift with one of my favorite people... Miss Amy Popp. I am getting really excited because not only does her boss seem like one of the coolest people ever, but Amy brings home loads of cash in tips every day. Also, he can give me full time. This is great. So for summer and fall, I will be working there... come let me serve you.
Did you know that Meredith and Rob are leaving. I wasn't that concerned at first, but as I still get to know them, it's quite sad. They are a great role model (them being one person and all). Anyway, I thought you might want to know in case you liked them a lot and were surprised when they weren't here when you came to visit. Also, they are asking for short letters expressing ways in which they have served you in the past couple of years. They will not be receiving support any more so they wanted to put our little blurbs in their last newsletter. You should think about it and email them fast if you want to do it.
I Forgot To Tell You This
My house is scary. Most of you know that. I swear it wasn't scary during the visits to 159 during my sophomore and junior year... right? I mean you were there... do you remember it being scary? Well a lot of things happen. Sometimes fireplaces jump from their traditional location and are found in the middle of the living room floor. Sometimes scary sounds walk around upstairs and downstairs and in the basement and in the attic. Sometimes scary sounds walk all the way up the steps... and never reveal their identity. Most recently though... scary manifested it self into bats. Just a couple so far... but we are ready for more.
This is really selfish... but I am glad that they keep ending up in Amy's room. She seems to be the least affected by all of this scary stuff... so heck why not her with the bats right?
We also have scary bugs. They aren't black and harmless with a little red... no that was 20 monty style... these oh boy these. Some of them are centipedes which in theory aren't scary until you watch them move...ewww. Also there is this new bug that Jackie stumbled upon the other day and yelped for me... creepo (as Jess would say). They are black and mostly like a spider but definitely worse than a spider. There legs make them huge... and tall... odd enough they are really really tall.
How many of you want to stay at my house for the letter writing party? ... hahaha!
Thanks to Mae's bone-chilling story, I remembered my scary home.... you should read her's its funny.
Find your Voice
Letter Writing Party (tell your friends...tell everyone)
want to help...call Jessica or me or just comment
Needs- researchers-presentations-food-invitations
Colleen- if you come, could you give us a little SB research. Maybe some brochures on their good attributes, then an update on what still needs to be done... maybe an address too?
Now is not the time.
Jessica- I am sorry that you knew what the last post was about... please forgive me.
On to the other things... I shouldn't be here right now. I made my to do list just now, and I am only freaking out a little bit. It's a lot to do before 10am tomorrow, but I know I will pull it out in the end. That's what I get for procrastinating all weekend.
So here's an update on the running thing. I stopped for a week to be sick, but started again this past week and didn't have any trouble. My stamina is increasing in a way that makes me excited and think about other people I could call to go running with once I am able to run as long as them. Amy is great at making me keep going, but unfortunately on the alone runs, I tend to wimp out a little faster. I have also started to ride a bike to school... which hello Colleen that's fun... you know that already though. The cars are scary though. They kind of suck.
Is there anyone else that would like to help organize this letter writing party? I need some people to gather information... I just don't think Jess, Chris, and I can do it all.
talk at you more later.
Can We Talk?
Can we talk about this without you getting upset?
Could I challenge you, and would you let me?
Do you think that your priorities are straight?
Do you think mine are?
Can we save the world?
Can we do everything?
If we can do anything, does that mean everything?
What if I put my priorities before yours and you put yours before mine? Would we get anywhere?
Shouldn't we have the same priorities?
Sure there is gray, but is there?
Even if you think that this is the only answer, it probably isn't.
Do you think that we can come to some conclusion?
Do you think we could leave and be ok with eachother?
Do you think that you are the only one here?
Do you think that I am judging you?
You may get it and you might not.
I think the answer is that we can't talk.
I think that my pride is in the way.
I think that your pride is in the way.
I think we could bend but we won't... or have you already...have I?
We are brothers and sisters, united we stand.
Maybe it's too much...
My favorite thing about blogging, is having or leaving comments. I try to talk about things that I think are interesting or things that I think that you will think are interesting... so respond to me... I want to have conversation.
As I plan class today, I am thinking that my students are ready for real communicative and real community language learning. There is this one student who talks a lot and has a lot of ideas, so to use him to his potential while increasing the amount that everyone else will get to participate, I think that I will put him up front and make him lead the discussion. I know that would make him a little nervous, but we have already established a safe learning environment in our class, so I think it will be ok. If I do this, I will be approaching a less teacher fronted classroom, which is scary, but nice.
We are talking about the cons of globalization. I told Jen that she could take the pros as I tend to think the cons out way the pros.
Lydia is going to come watch today. She is thinking about teaching english abroad and pursuing this certificate program... I am nervous. I am not the same person in front of the class as I am with her... I hope it will all be ok.
This Thursday at the new and improved time of bible study, we are going to talk about the holy spirit. I have been pondering my studying of this all week... how to approach it... which aspect to focus on. I mean, the Holy Spirit is HUGE. When I think of when I experience the holy spirit, it's a lot of time in worship (song style), and I haven't done that in a long time... there's also the comfort I feel in the HS during spiritual warfare... but if I just studied the things I already knew... I would learn more but nothing really really really new... do you have any suggestions?
Ok so permenantly the Letter Writing Party is on Sunday May 22nd from 11am-6pm. Jessica will arrive after church and hopefully get to be a partner or co-host (pending the completeness of a paper). This is your invitation and chance to express one last time what you want us to write letters about. If you need lodging (no matter who you are) we can accomodate. If you want to help financially (buying stamps, envelopes, paper, pens, pencils) we welcome that too. If you would like to collect or give information concerning the issues or people to contact... we would love that help too.
Update on the sweatshop teachings. This is kind of like a failure, but more like a good learning experience. I had two bible studies tell me they were interested, one of them, I think they taught their bs themselves and the other... I don't know. No matter what or how a lot of awareness was raised in my attempts. And heck Amy Popp is making a great great effort to be a responsible shopper (as well as helping me in my attempts).
Well guys, I love you, and miss you. A public apology goes out to Colleen who I may have treated harshly. I am sorry Colleen... I only meant love in my statements, I am sorry for my lack of gentleness... but I really do care about those things. I would request that every 20 monty girl make my letter writing party a priority. It would be gerat to have you there...
Chris- you have to be there... Cat- if you could spare the time I would love to have you in my home generating all kinds of good conversation with people (I know it's the day after your birthday).
To anyone who lives in Athens- you should come too. I will give you an invitation later.
Jess- I will see you at BS
If your name isn't metioned here... you are either in Greece or I don't know that you read my blog... or your my house mate.... yeah.
